So yesterday we found out that we were denied for a home loan. On the basis that we have no credit score lol. We bought a credit report and it looked fine. Then the home loan guy said that it must have been wrong. Really? Then they said we didn't have any credit cards or car payments, and that wasn't a good thing. Oh I'm sorry that we bought our car straight out. I have money to buy my stuff so we don't use credit cards, because you lose more money that way with the interest. I guess it is a necessary evil lol. Either way I am not disappointed. I think that we were going a little to fast with the house. Sure I loved the house we had picked, but there was a lot of improvements to be made to make it the way that I want, or should i say we want. It's not something that I really want to do. Till maybe Zoe is in school. On a second note, the money that we saved up for the down payment and everything can just go to get us some Cedar Point and Soak City passes for the summer. Zoe loved it there when we went last time. So now we will go all the time. Its less then an hour from us. Yeah we will be there a lot. Im looking forward to that.

Well Hello there. We meet again MAVERICK. I am here to roller coast! I love your Twisted Horseshoe rolls. (4-8-09)

It is 3:51am. Yeah in the morning. You, little Zoe are still up! Your bedtime has been a little off lately. Ever since you had been sick. We are slowly bringing you back on track. So today was your first time bowling! You had such a great time. Kayla was there too. You scored better than mommy on your first game! How funny is that. You had a fit when we went to leave because someone else touched the door. We got you outside and then you decided that you were gonna make a run for it and go back inside. You ended up running into the door with your face. First bloody nose! After were got in the car you said that you never want to bowl again. I felt bad that you hurt yourself.

The other day we went and looked at a house that we wanted to buy. We asked you what you though about it and said that you didn't like it because there were no toys there. It was so cute. You think we wouldn't bring your toys? Baby the reason why we are getting a three bedroom is so you can have your own toy room!

I can't believe how big you are now. We measured you the other day. You were 42.25 inches and weighted 37 pounds. Everyone always thinks that you are 6 years old. When I tell them that you are 4 they say, "wow she's so tall".

You just told me that you want to cuddle with me in your bed so you can go to sleep. I love you. (4-4-09)

So I realize that I should have been doing this long ago. 4 years and 4 months to be exact. JUst writing down what my little one has been doing. I have been there so much and seen Zoe through everything. I know that I have every detail in memory, locked away so that i wont forget. It's there, just hard sometimes to bring everything into view. So I will start from here on. Hopefully one day you can look at this and think... "How funny is that, my mom was cool at one point". I love you little girl, dont ever forget that, I know I wont. (4-4-09)